Is he out there?

It's hard to find the right one because it seems pointless when they are all the same. The boy I want is on the computer screen. I just want someone I can be myself with. Someone I can act a fool around and so find me beautiful. I want someone who doesn't care about sex or even cross their mind. I want someone who doesn't care about those things and only cares about the times they have spent with me. That's what matters not the other things. It just makes me mad that guys these days all they think about is sex and it just disgust me and how they talk about girls like they are disposal trash. We are people too treat us like one. I believe that girls shouldn't just have sex just to make people like them and to make people stay. Don't make a mistake that you will regret later on. This is why I choose to be a virgin until marriage and most people have problems with that. Well that's just their problem not mine because one day I will find someone that will support my decision because if you love someone you will do whatever it takes to make them happy. Everyone has a choice it is all up to us that we decide what path to take. I just hope he is out there.

I miss you...

I miss you more than you know. I miss how we use to tease each other and how happy I was back then with you. Especially how you made me feel... wanted. Now its just nothing we don't even talk anymore and it's sad because every time you are online I just wanted to say Hi or even get a Hi from you but of course. It's silent. It's truly sad how we once were and now we don't even talk at all. I miss the way you use to make me feel. The way that I use to get butterflies whenever we would talk. The way you would make me do the craziest things just to get your attention. But I took you for granted and I'm sorry for that.That's the one thing I would change if I could turn back time. In the end I guess we both lost each other because we were young and confused of how we felt for each other. I knew how I felt about you but was just too afraid to admit it and how you would react to it. But if I had one more chance I'd tell you before you left.But we were young and if we had a chance now I guess it would be real different. I'm not the same girl I once was but either are you. I've changed and been through alot all of the struggles made me who I am today. But the sad thing is I don't know you at all now because time have passed and I don't know if you are still that same boy that made my heart skip a beat or are you someone different.  I guess it's true you never know what you got till it's gone. I just regret what I didn't say to you. But I don't regret for the things I've done. The things I've done led to the memories that I still hold dear to my heart because that's all I have left of you. Just memories. Thinking of you makes my heartache.  I miss you my almost lover.

ADUB Love

So today I spent all day looking and watching Adub! Like seriously it makes me wanna see them like right now. They are my new obsession. I can't wait until March it's gonna be the best. I have to be in front row oh my goshnesss. It's gonna be the best time ever! Ahh so excited. Gonna come up with ideas and make signs and maybe shirts too. I'm hoping to see Cameron. I love him!Oh gosh his smile -sighs- it's like oh my goodness dead His eyes are so beautifull it's so omg..I'm in love with Cameron Quiseng. Like seriouslly that boy will give me butterflies.  Like it's my goal  I have to meet him and take a picture with him, Zach, Michael, and Nathan! Like seriously today I fell in love with Allstar Weekend.

New Obsession

Enough said. I had a dream that I had a boyfriend and his name was Cameron and he had curly hair like him. I bet it was Cameron Quiseng. So we had this awesome relationship and he was the best boyfriend ever! Yo Cam! Nice face let's go out! Ah his eyes are so beautiful like its ohhh my goshnesss dead. His smile is like omg -sighs- :D ! He's just so freakin adorable you don't even understand. He's so funny and dorky. His dancing skills are so adorable. He's someone I could fall in love. Actually I already did.

Life

"You know, just when we think we have it all figured out, something happens. We become fearful, but we don't need to be. No circumstance, nothing in life is ever set in stone. Love is never pre-determined and love always overcomes. - Nick Jonas <3"

The darkest hour

In your darkest hour where you are feeling lonely. Just know that there is support around you because there is always that one person that will always have your back and support you no matter what. That's when you know that everything will be alright and that you are not alone. The ones that hurt the most are the ones that smile the most because they are the one that hide their feelings. The ones that fake their smiles to hide their real feelings.Having support is the most important thing in life. Because you can have everything but when you don't have a person to support or talk to you. Who do you turn to? I now realize the real people that are there for me. I am very thankful for that. I just wanted to say you are perfect just the way you are. Don't let others tell you otherwise because I believe that there is that one person for everybody. Nobody is perfect. Everyone has flaws that's what makes you perfect in someone else eyes. Your flaws. You are not alone everyone has a story to tell. Tell me yours and I'll you mine.